Where Faith in addition to Zebras Intersect

A month or so ago, when Scott was in California to help his parents in crisis, in addition to Caleb had recycled the Mountain Phase of Ranger School in addition to was out on patrols, in addition to I was alone here in Kenya out on a morning jog with our dog Nyota, praying, huffing, feeling the weight of broken medical systems in addition to deferred dreams in addition to the randomness of the harsh patrol grading in addition to aching for him to pass . . . in my heart I thought, God, could you give me some sign This kind of will all be OK, like, say I come around This kind of rise in addition to see zebras . . . currently I don’t believe inside the theology of the fleece.  Faith should just rock on.  however I confess This kind of was how I felt in which morning.  Occasionally we had seen zebra in This kind of scrubland where we run before, however I had not seen any in a long time.  This kind of’s a no-man’s-land between the railroad in addition to the highway, where Maasai herd goats in addition to sheep at times, in addition to handfuls of poor people traverse trails to town.  in which morning I just wanted something like assurance. I came up the rise by the railroad in which skirts a gully, in addition to around a corner, in addition to there they were.  Zebra.

Fast forward to Sunday, when we were restlessly waiting to find out if Caleb passed the Swamp Phase in addition to therefore would likely graduate Ranger School.  We went for an afternoon walk, knowing This kind of was probably too early on the East Coast to wish for a call, knowing in which there were only two pay phones in addition to the lines were probably going to be impossibly long, hoping the news would likely be not bad, however steeling ourselves for positivity should This kind of be bad.  I brought my binoculars to look at birds.  Scott had to stop for a phone call with his hospital colleagues, so I sat on a rock in addition to scanned around.  No birds.  So I looked inside the far distance, on the some other side of the highway, where some smaller patches of wilderness abut the sprawling slums. Dust was rising into the afternoon slant of sunshine through the clouds, probably coming from a dirt football field obscured by buildings.  I scanned left, in addition to there they were, between the trees: 5 zebra, again.

inside the last two months, those two instances in addition to one some other morning seeing a solitary zebra near the railroad tracks, are the only times I have seen them.  Each time, they gave me unreasonable wish in which all shall be well.

Sunday night, Caleb called Jack.  He passed.  On Friday, he will graduate, as a Ranger-qualified officer, a tab in which signifies 3 months of sleep deprivation, limited food, harsh conditions, slogging up rocks in addition to through mud, in constant stress of simulated war, lugging more than half his weight in gear, being ambushed, shot at (with blanks), yelled at.  At every step of the way, he could have been disqualified, often for reasons way beyond his control.  The purpose of the training is actually to prepare these young people (historically 100% men, however currently there have been a handful of women too) to lead wisely in impossible situations.  We had an amazing prayer in addition to support team getting almost weekly emails in addition to holding him up, even as they held up the rest of our teams in East in addition to Central Africa.  Sometimes I felt a little guilty asking for prayer for one kid when the entire world is actually so full of needs.  however he’s our kid, in addition to in which’s our heart, in addition to I think This kind of reflects God’s heart too, wanting us to live meaningfully, all-out, standing for not bad in hard places, not loving life even unto death (Rev 12:11) inside the battle against evil.  God sees, the individual 22-year-old (for his birthday in late February he got a piece of birthday-cake-flavored GUM, in which was This kind of) pushing himself to the limits to serve others, in addition to our entire Serge Area of people laying down their lives.  in addition to God sees the anxious mom, me, praying in addition to hoping.

So what does faith truly have to do with zebras?  

Well, in medicine, we are taught in which common things are common. coming from an America-centric standpoint, in which means if something has hooves in addition to a main in addition to gallops past, This kind of is actually a horse.  Don’t look for a zebra.  (So if a patient includes a fever in addition to cough, think about a respiratory virus not anthrax inhalation).  However, in Africa a zebra is actually much more likely than a horse.  in addition to This kind of morning This kind of occurred to me, in our lives, GRACE prevails.  This kind of may seem unlikely in which a zebra would likely graze within a km of our house, or in which our son would likely pass a school where 60% fail, or in which we would likely have performed our second-ever exchange transfusion (removing in addition to replacing double the baby’s blood volume to save his brain coming from the toxic effects of maternal antibodies attacking his incompatible blood cells, all because even though she had lost two children already his mom couldn’t afford the $65 injection to prevent This kind of), This kind of time having a live in addition to increased baby at the end, or in which Scott would likely save another mom’s life having a C-section yesterday.  In our world, zebras of God’s grace need some celebration, because they keep showing up more often than they should.

These 3, in one incubator, combined weigh less than the average newborn

Acute room, somehow the spindly shared oxygen in addition to limited medicine options still save lives

Rounds, trying to find the problems in a sea of babies

The tiny baby whose mother was nearly dead coming from ecclampsia yesterday, in addition to the baby in which presented feet first however made This kind of out

So pause today in addition to thank God for Amazing Grace, which always bats last as Anne Lamont says.  in addition to ask God to keep us steady when we’re inside the wilderness in addition to the zebra are hard to spot. Which is actually most of the time, admittedly.  Thanks to all who prayed.  This kind of’s only one chapter in a story in which will have even more hardship in addition to danger, so not bad for all of us to lean into grace.

Oh, in addition to we can currently officially end Lent.  Cheers.

Where Faith in addition to Zebras Intersect

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